The last few days have been difficult. I knew motherhood would have hard moments, but I wasn’t prepared to be challenged like I have in the last two months. I thought my 23-hour labor and completely natural delivery would be the hardest thing I would ever experience. Ha! I’m realizing there are moments that can rival that. I had a “meltdown moment” earlier this week, and called my husband (who was at work) completely in tears. He didn’t have answers for our challenging situation, and I didn’t expect him to… I just wanted to hear his voice and be vulnerable & honest… to take off my “always optimistic, always happy” face. Josh did exactly what I needed… listened and prayed.
I’m learning that’s what marriage is all about. To completely trust someone enough to let them see past your “happy face”. Someone whom you can trust your vulnerability with, and who will love you back unconditionally. But, remember, this isn’t a one-way street… it must go two ways.
I’m grateful to have a husband who never leaves my side… he may not have all the answers (He’s not God!)… but on May 14, 2011, he vowed to stay with me during the hard times and the good times, and I did the same. Thank you for already living up to your vows, Sweetheart. I love you, and couldn’t be more honored to share this journey called “life” with you.