Its late at night, and I’m typing this on my tiny phone screen while in bed. My mind is tired, yet won’t rest, and my thoughts have been relatively deep this season. I always clear my head best by writing things out. Its been a season of change… Which is oh-so-uncomfortable (as nothing to do with new baby on the way). God often drops a song into my spirit during “dry spells” and its always a comfort to have something to hold onto. I’ve found myself singing “Oceans” by Hillsong over and over the last several months, and have been hit with a sudden realization. If I sing:
Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters, where ever you would call me.
Then, why do I find myself caught off guard and surprised when a season of uncomfortable change and instability come along?? How can I sing/pray those kind of words and not expect to be put in situations where my trust in my Father will have growing pains and be stretched?? Aren’t I praying that my trust will be without borders?? That doesn’t happen overnight… Its a journey. Sometimes, a very uncomfortable one. Do I truly want to walk upon the waters… where ever He would call me?
Why do I feel like that’s a loaded question?
You’ve called me out upon the waters… The great unknown, where feet may fail. And there I’ll find you in the mystery. In oceans deep, my faith will stand.
For grace abounds in deepest waters. Your sovereign hand will be my guide.
Where feet may fail and fear surround me… You’ve never failed, and you won’t start now.
Father, I choose to trust You. But, its not easy or natural for me to. Thank you for being patient and loving me unconditionally. My soul chooses to rest in Your embrace.
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